Only a slave quantifies its existence through productivity.

I have entered my “bengali bhadralok” era (ask chatgpt if you dont know what it is) and i found myself readin’ a lot of philosophy and stuff. Recently… I came across this insane quote through a youtube video and I’ll be honest, I was finally happy to meet someone who also thought the same… The entire life I have been doing shii that I loved or wanted to do. I understood computers and STEM related topics simply because I wanted to understand how stuff works. Now here’s the thing many people around me don’t really think the same way… Yesterday I get a message from one of my good friend sayin' that some girl who was worser academically (in past) had got insane amount of marks in a Organic Chemistry test. I wasn’t pissed off, I was like “oh ok cool”, but nah, my homie was in full panic mode, he simply couldn’t accept the fact that someone had got better, when I asked why he reacted like this - he said that it wasn’t “fair” that someone who had apparently worked “less hard” get better in academics. I really didn’t understand his insecurity and then he pulled up Class 10 Board results… Yea Class 10… and asked me if I ever feel bad that people who never did well… did well in exam. I was like… nah, why would I, class 10 boards wasn’t my goal anyways, I genuinly do not care about that exam like dawg… And then I dropped this insane banger of a quote[the one in the title], he called my quote a ragebait and that apparently I am a “higher iq” person than him and that’s why I am not worried. I have never understood why do people compare each other like it. Like just set a goal and just work towards it… like crazy, thats all… If you ask me? I wanna build epic shit, maybe insane ass systems, hardware and if I lucky enough, the beautiful Indian Military Complex. You know~ I wanna build fancy stuff.

“it ain’t engineering, if it ain’t flashy” ~ Marisa Kirisame but if she was a based engineer.

ok fine, maybe I do not know much about engineering, afterall what do I even know, I am a new fella in this world, learnin’ how to give and take- but seriously tho, I do not what it is called, but I really love building silly and useless stuff man and just understanding how shit works in general… I feel like I would be much happier with left with a bunch of wires, a FGPA and some alcohol in a dimly lit room for a single samosa a day than I will be if I was being paid a million to just crunch numbers for the huge capitalist money companies… you know, golden sacks and all those- Like whats the point of life if you just keep workin’ to work more…? The average life expectancy in India is approximately 67(haha funny number) years, 19 of the precious 67 years are aldready gone, I just never understood the fasination and ego behind working so hard for things you probably don’t even like. There is a difference between passionate hard work and duty, and you know… working for the sake of ego and maintaining a social status. The later just drains you and takes time of yo precious mortal life…

Like my friend’s insecurity was so crazy, I had to write this blog post, he asks me, “Don’t you feel bad they outperformed you?” aww hell nah, why would I be? I was playin’ a different game anyway… Like I never expected to score in any of the standard exam. I get pissed off when people try to sht on my work. Like bro… this one time my physics teacher just asked me in class to implement “Bubble Sort”, ok fine fancy algo, I don’t remember any fancy algos by name… if you could tell I can implement it… nah he jus straight up calls me pathetic and “replacable by ai”, you know that kind of sht pisses me off… Not just random genuine hardworking person outperfmoring me…

Call it a copium for not being able to work hard or inability to escape the poverty cycle, I never understood the fasination behind materalism… like money is cool, I will give you that…

“Money doesn’t buy happiness, it buys crazy-a55 happiness” ~ Eminem

call me a hypocrite but at same time I also agree w this quote… like money is cool… it makes life easier… but what’s the point of earnin’ so much money if you can’t even enjoy it or use it do things you love. listen, I am a simple man who loves building sht, as long as I have enough money to fund my stupid projects, I am happy, the Indian roads ain’t built for a ferrari anyways.