i fked all my of my engineering undergraduate entrance exams yay and i’m going to tier 4 cse slop. i am happy that atleast i am able to leave the dehats of odisha and go into a better city so that i can try some fancy stuff. Last few weeks there was an insane heatwave in india which was blamed on modi ji for some reason and yesterday i had my vit and while returning the weather was insanely good and it rained like crazy which is good. and since live in dehats of odisha, one drop of rain took down the electricity, which ruined the dahi tikka aloo bada i was making in airfryer with my mother, so i had complete rest of the cooking in deep fried oil. it came out epic.
also i stopped caring about college yr, this jee stuff aint for me, all my homies takin drop and all, i am just gonna go to a tier 4 slop, i cannot imagine studying this stuff all over again. i accepted the fact that everyone is better than me and i realized i dont care!!!! i can keep on living and eating aloo bada every day and nobody can do anything about it, no matter my jee percentile!!! also i don’t think i will be writing midwit philosophical bs on here anymore. my blog will mostly contain technicall stuff — the only thing i can do well… probably and stupid things from my life like this!!! i am planning to write a wayland compositor sooner or later after all the exams are over. cz jee advanced is in may 17. can’t believe i managed to clear the cut off 😭 😭 ✌️
every other person think the other person is better, i think the dude taking drop at 98 %ile is insane, the 98 %ile dude wants IIT, the dude who’s getting IIT wants AIR 1, the AIR 1 guy is pissed he didn’t clear all 5 olympiad subjects, the guy who cleared 5 subject olympiad is pissed he didn’t waste his teenage playing minecraft and shitposting on discord. i realized you can never be truly happy, once u get shit, you yearn for more — afterall that’s what human beings have done for years, yearning for more ’n more and we had printing presses and then steam engines and then Touhou Project. all 3 greatest invention of man kind is due to us wanting more. i am trying to cut down my materialistic greed, just trying to cut down on everything… realizing i have enough… devoting my life to goddess saraswati… well atleast i am trying… found myself buying a mechanical keyboard last week… well it was definitely worth upgrading from membrane keyboard. sure the creamy and thocky switches are so satisfying… but meh, whatever what happened, happened, thing is, you can never have enough stuff yr, stop trying to push yourself, you will never reach a point where you have “true” happiness, sure you’ll be happier than before, but you can never satisfy 100% of your greed. You can live a life without a reason too, its not always that you need a reason to live a life. Aloo Bada is so epic!!!
