First post of 2026. I would probably find this post cringe and retarded after a few years, afterall My grandparent’s marriage lasted ~57 years and and I have only lived around a one-third of it. What do I know about life.
Recently I have been getting too much influenced by people who say they don’t wanna do job (like cemeteryf0g on youtube) and I really like the fuck it, we ball lifestyle they have. They just be travelling ‘round the world with little to no money. They are simply so chill about life, and don’t gaf about any authority. Listen I don’t like rotting in home and shit, I do wish to work, and contribute to society but let’s be honest — working at enterprise isn’t doing shit. All you do is make rich; richer and you get somewhat of a stable job. That’s good if you have a family. Too bad for retarded people like the bloodline ends with us. Not blaming it on hypergamy, I am sure there are just as “boring” and retarded people for every sexual orientation and gender. Like everyone is just pretending to useful. I was helping one of my friends from USA with her letter of recomendation, and the university rejected because apparently it wasn’t “professional”. She had to add banner and more formal format to it, the content still stayed the same. I really don’t understand why people love pretending they’re important and doing something useful. Another instance is from yesterday — had my CBSE Chemistry practical, the CBSE external asked me to define “cryoscopic constant”. Simple enough? I said its the proportionality constant between the direct relationship of depression in freezing point and molality. The dude was not happy. He said the defination is not “bookish” and he cut 5 marks for it and my pathners (viva happens in groups of 3 in my school), they couldn’t say a single line. Apprently the correct answer is the constant that says how much 1 molal of a solution will cause depression in freezing point. Like what’s the difference ?!! I get it, the original engineers defined it that way? But seriously cutting entire 5 marks for our team? Whatever, like I care! (I am pissed off very much). Very few people do anything useful really — especially in the world of technology. Currently we are in this massive AI bubble and their entire capital is just the system prompts. Except for the GPU makers and companies that make the actual model, everyone is going to go bankrupt once the bubble pops. The real people who make difference are really just the open source contributors. Like let’s be real enterprise programming is dead, unless you are still using GPT-3 or something in 2026, the new series of Gemini, Claude or hell even the open source Chinese models can easily outperform the most random CRUD and SaaS application. Optimization? Just add more CPU and RAM. The 1% technical side of programming in corporations that was left, has all been reduced to nothing with generative AI. It’s just office politics now. I don’t hate generative AI, I don’t like the idea of being the “Bangalore IT coolie”. Hell, I wanna stick around my 8GB RAM laptop for long time now in hopes that it teaches me to optimize things. Like I learnt to use vim and optimize my work only because when I started to learn programming, I had mere 2GB of RAM and an Intel Core 2 Duo, all the way till late 2019. I would have never learnt to program efficiently if it wasn’t for the constraints in my childhood! Like I remember, those were the days, when VScode simply won’t start. I felt extremely sad, I taught myself to use Sublime text and Vim. Now I look back and don’t feel sad…
Anyways uh, the original topic. One of the biggest thing that bothers me is how will have some money. Even if you believe materialism if absolute toomfoolery, you still need some money to live a completely miserable and homeless life. Like heart me out — if the bloodline ends with you, just use your inheritence. Nobody else needs it, maybe invest it a bit in mutual funds and stuff, so it runs a bit longer, but yea, what’s the purpose of it anyways lol. I will see what I can do in future, surely I don’t wanna sit in home and be absolutely useless, thats worse than being a IT coolie. Like all I wanna do, is something useful. Maybe maintain a huge open source project while living in a small hut in Shiwaliks of Himachal Pradesh. God knows. The current trajectory of life doesn’t seem that pretty. Unless I really immigrate to a first-world country, the hopes of doing something useful is pretty much dead. The state of research and entrepreneurship in our country… You wanna start a fancy company that does something real for a second in India? Oh well good luck meeting with a few babus who think themselves to reincarnations of Vishnu — I hate the license raj controlled economy system so much. Full support to free market!!! When I joined a dummy school in class 12, I thought I would have so much free time now to code and practice stuff… Little did I know… where this JEE journey took me 😔 Same for college, I browse around the btech subreddit, I see people saying how much they have to push for maintaining their CGPA, like seriously? Is there any time in life you get to work on yourself and improve your skills instead of like… just meatriding the system? The future looks so sad and definitely not what I was told when I was in class 6. They told me “get a job at FAANG, you will the best engineer”… Like I kinda get the appeal for stability, but if you born — you bound to death. Whats the point of dying sad. You ain’t gonna carry all the materialistic gains into your next life anyways. They lied to me… I wish to be a master of my craft and be a technological purist, I love pain and grinding for stuff. I have discipline to sit down for 16 hours and write a tcp server but I can’t sit down for a single hour and memorize the entire P-block. Skill issue or whatever you like to call it — but it is what it is.
